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Oct. 31st, 2007 04:25 pmSo, I'm home from testing and results and all.
I'm really sort of...upset and confused by my results. Pretty much everything they said made me cringe in horror.
Some of it was good -- excellent spatial sense and "design memory" and a "problem solver" personality, which means I'm pretty much right where I should be, in the theatre, doing theatre stuff. The majority of it, though, seemed like they'd given me someone else's results. While my vocab was off the scale, my "Divergent Thinking" scores, which indicate an aptitude for literary pursuits (among other things), were rated low to average, and my math-specific numerical aptitude and number memory was quite high. I don't understand how this could possibly be, as the empirical evidence of the last fifteen years of my life suggests that I can't add numbers above five -- let alone be a Budget Analyst, which was one of the primary career suggestions for me.
I don't know whether or not to trust my freakishly high memory scores. I used memory tricks for most of the tests, but I still scored high on the one test I couldn't use tricks on, the rhythmic memory, so I dunno.
The strangest of all was that I scored "objective" on the personality scale, suggesting I enjoy working with people, caring for others, and leading groups. Now, you know I love you all, but on the whole I hate humanity and interact badly with it -- I'm never sure what to say or how to "be" physically, always stepping in peoples' way and avoiding eye contact. The tester gave me an outline of the subjective personality and it read much more like me.
I guess I was subconsciously hoping they would say "you should do THIS" and it would be like a thunderbolt. Instead, they gave me a list of jobs that I already do, a list of jobs that I could do which pay nothing, and a list of very high-paying jobs that either require years of training or which require a mathematical facility that I do not have, whatever the tests say.
So, that's it. Kind of anticlimactic, but as usual it's my own fault for having unrealistic expectations. That's one thing I do seem to have an aptitude for.
I'm really sort of...upset and confused by my results. Pretty much everything they said made me cringe in horror.
Some of it was good -- excellent spatial sense and "design memory" and a "problem solver" personality, which means I'm pretty much right where I should be, in the theatre, doing theatre stuff. The majority of it, though, seemed like they'd given me someone else's results. While my vocab was off the scale, my "Divergent Thinking" scores, which indicate an aptitude for literary pursuits (among other things), were rated low to average, and my math-specific numerical aptitude and number memory was quite high. I don't understand how this could possibly be, as the empirical evidence of the last fifteen years of my life suggests that I can't add numbers above five -- let alone be a Budget Analyst, which was one of the primary career suggestions for me.
I don't know whether or not to trust my freakishly high memory scores. I used memory tricks for most of the tests, but I still scored high on the one test I couldn't use tricks on, the rhythmic memory, so I dunno.
The strangest of all was that I scored "objective" on the personality scale, suggesting I enjoy working with people, caring for others, and leading groups. Now, you know I love you all, but on the whole I hate humanity and interact badly with it -- I'm never sure what to say or how to "be" physically, always stepping in peoples' way and avoiding eye contact. The tester gave me an outline of the subjective personality and it read much more like me.
I guess I was subconsciously hoping they would say "you should do THIS" and it would be like a thunderbolt. Instead, they gave me a list of jobs that I already do, a list of jobs that I could do which pay nothing, and a list of very high-paying jobs that either require years of training or which require a mathematical facility that I do not have, whatever the tests say.
So, that's it. Kind of anticlimactic, but as usual it's my own fault for having unrealistic expectations. That's one thing I do seem to have an aptitude for.
