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Mar. 7th, 2010 10:40 amWell, the Cafe Map from the last post is a qualified success; it looks awesome, though I didn't realise that it would divide itself up into pages. Also, sorry I totally failed to give instructions on how to use it. If anyone would like a pin dropped and either can't access it or is having issues, comment with a general location and I'll mark it for you. At any rate it is lovely to see where everyone is and how many of us there are. :)
I was going to go over to storage today and see what my personal Room Of Requirement had for me, but I am 1) tired and 2) not feeling well, so I've decided to blow it off and go over for a longer period of time next weekend.
I suspect I'm in the middle of a depression flare-up that may have been going on since Thursday, so I've kicked into managerial overdrive -- I've put things on the to-do list I normally wouldn't have to, set alarms to make sure I eat at least twice a day, structured bedtime appropriate to getting enough sleep, and today if I get up the energy I'll cook some food for the week. And if not? I have a lot of bread and peanut butter. Oddly, you'd think all the planning I did yesterday would be a sign I'm not depressed, but spending that kind of money can also mean I just fucking don't care.
It's not a huge deal, this is why I have safeguards in place, and it's not like I'm sitting in my flat in the dark weeping or anything. I just feel lethargic and apathetic, but I suspect I'm in the worst of it just now, because usually this goes away in a week or two and I'll maniacally do all the shit I should be doing now. So it all balances out in the end. :)
But yeah, I'm talking about this to talk about it, because people should talk about it, not to worry anyone -- I'm fine, I've managed this since I was seventeen, I'm just a bit under the weather at the moment.
I was going to go over to storage today and see what my personal Room Of Requirement had for me, but I am 1) tired and 2) not feeling well, so I've decided to blow it off and go over for a longer period of time next weekend.
I suspect I'm in the middle of a depression flare-up that may have been going on since Thursday, so I've kicked into managerial overdrive -- I've put things on the to-do list I normally wouldn't have to, set alarms to make sure I eat at least twice a day, structured bedtime appropriate to getting enough sleep, and today if I get up the energy I'll cook some food for the week. And if not? I have a lot of bread and peanut butter. Oddly, you'd think all the planning I did yesterday would be a sign I'm not depressed, but spending that kind of money can also mean I just fucking don't care.
It's not a huge deal, this is why I have safeguards in place, and it's not like I'm sitting in my flat in the dark weeping or anything. I just feel lethargic and apathetic, but I suspect I'm in the worst of it just now, because usually this goes away in a week or two and I'll maniacally do all the shit I should be doing now. So it all balances out in the end. :)
But yeah, I'm talking about this to talk about it, because people should talk about it, not to worry anyone -- I'm fine, I've managed this since I was seventeen, I'm just a bit under the weather at the moment.
