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Aug. 20th, 2010 08:18 amThis week has been crap.
I mean objectively it's been crap, crap things have happened, it's not just me, there was the phone thing and spammers and other crap I haven't even talked about. But I also haven't had wheat all week and frankly it's messing me up. I am miserable, constantly angry, unusually impatient, and fucking starving all the time. It's not like I don't eat, I'm eating more or less continually, every two hours, lean protein and a lot of rice and way more fruit than normal. I cannot tell you how sick I am of apples. Did you know Cheetos don't have gluten in them? If I have to do this for reals forever I might live on Cheetos.
I understand that a) it takes at least two weeks for a food allergy like this to die down and b) this may be some kind of withdrawal thing, but supposedly people with wheat/gluten intolerance/allergies often feel better within a few days, happier or more energetic or more clear-headed. If anything, I feel the reverse; I'm tired constantly but not sleeping well, my work is suffering (which takes a lot, because it's not like this is high-function work I do here) and I'm being mean to people. Which reminds me, if I have been mean to you this week, I am sorry.
I'm sure some of it is that this week has been legitimately crap, but Jesus, I don't like myself at all right now.
So tonight I'm going to go home and have some toast and get some sleep. I'm going in for a food allergy panel thing of some kind on Monday, which will apparently help me figure out what the FUCK, so if this actually is an issue then I'll...I don't know, throw out all my bread and find a doctor willing to prescribe me Xanax on a regular basis.
I mean objectively it's been crap, crap things have happened, it's not just me, there was the phone thing and spammers and other crap I haven't even talked about. But I also haven't had wheat all week and frankly it's messing me up. I am miserable, constantly angry, unusually impatient, and fucking starving all the time. It's not like I don't eat, I'm eating more or less continually, every two hours, lean protein and a lot of rice and way more fruit than normal. I cannot tell you how sick I am of apples. Did you know Cheetos don't have gluten in them? If I have to do this for reals forever I might live on Cheetos.
I understand that a) it takes at least two weeks for a food allergy like this to die down and b) this may be some kind of withdrawal thing, but supposedly people with wheat/gluten intolerance/allergies often feel better within a few days, happier or more energetic or more clear-headed. If anything, I feel the reverse; I'm tired constantly but not sleeping well, my work is suffering (which takes a lot, because it's not like this is high-function work I do here) and I'm being mean to people. Which reminds me, if I have been mean to you this week, I am sorry.
I'm sure some of it is that this week has been legitimately crap, but Jesus, I don't like myself at all right now.
So tonight I'm going to go home and have some toast and get some sleep. I'm going in for a food allergy panel thing of some kind on Monday, which will apparently help me figure out what the FUCK, so if this actually is an issue then I'll...I don't know, throw out all my bread and find a doctor willing to prescribe me Xanax on a regular basis.
