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Jun. 2nd, 2010 11:46 amHey, remember when I wrote #LOVESTORY and discovered that AI love is awesome? :D
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solsticezero has written a companion piece, #HEARTBREAK, about the events from Mr. Smith's point of view. I had somewhat thought of Mr. Smith as Mainframe's gay best friend, but I love what the story does with him. (I'm a sucker for Torchwood-SJA interaction in general, especially when it's Ianto).
Unrelatedly, a question. This has bothered me about my writing literally since I started at the age of thirteen, and I had an insecurity attack while I was editing CG today:
Do those of you who write ever look at your work and think, this looks nothing like what you see in a proper book? It's not so much a sense of lacking-quality as a sense of inauthenticity, like somehow your writing just doesn't have an indefinable thing that makes it professional.
I am a terribly subjective person; I have a lot of difficulty looking at my work objectively and judging its inherent quality. It's not that I think I suck, it's that I can't tell if I suck. I'm happy to depend on readers to tell me whether I suck or not, but sometimes it's frustrating not to be a good judge of my own work. Do you ever feel this way?
On a more exultant note, rearranging the front half of Charitable Getting resulted in some temporal displacements, but I've finally worked through to a point where everything is happening on the date I said it was happening again, and I've finished up through chapter six. So that's nice.
I am so ridiculously worried that I'll have done this work and post it again and everyone will say "nope, I still can't tell the characters apart" because frankly I am at my wits' end as to how I can do any more about that than I've done. Which is why it has taken me four months to get through six chapters. Gah.
solsticezero has written a companion piece, #HEARTBREAK, about the events from Mr. Smith's point of view. I had somewhat thought of Mr. Smith as Mainframe's gay best friend, but I love what the story does with him. (I'm a sucker for Torchwood-SJA interaction in general, especially when it's Ianto). Unrelatedly, a question. This has bothered me about my writing literally since I started at the age of thirteen, and I had an insecurity attack while I was editing CG today:
Do those of you who write ever look at your work and think, this looks nothing like what you see in a proper book? It's not so much a sense of lacking-quality as a sense of inauthenticity, like somehow your writing just doesn't have an indefinable thing that makes it professional.
I am a terribly subjective person; I have a lot of difficulty looking at my work objectively and judging its inherent quality. It's not that I think I suck, it's that I can't tell if I suck. I'm happy to depend on readers to tell me whether I suck or not, but sometimes it's frustrating not to be a good judge of my own work. Do you ever feel this way?
On a more exultant note, rearranging the front half of Charitable Getting resulted in some temporal displacements, but I've finally worked through to a point where everything is happening on the date I said it was happening again, and I've finished up through chapter six. So that's nice.
I am so ridiculously worried that I'll have done this work and post it again and everyone will say "nope, I still can't tell the characters apart" because frankly I am at my wits' end as to how I can do any more about that than I've done. Which is why it has taken me four months to get through six chapters. Gah.
