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Jun. 25th, 2013 07:38 pmWell, that was terrible.
It's not my first sleep study thing; it's actually my third, and I've always tolerated the electrodes and such pretty well before. Last night was the first one wearing a CPAP mask, which has left me exhausted and cranky.
I'm sure I did sleep, and I got probably at least six hours, which usually leaves me functional. I can only guess that having a GIANT HOSE in the bed with me, plus having to clench my jaw all night to prevent opening my mouth (every time I did, I promptly choked, but then I also choked when I didn't) plus having something blowing into my face for eight hours didn't really get me any quality sleep. I woke up this morning feeling exhausted, spent the whole day feeling exhausted, and finally feel human again after three hours of sleep without the stupid mask. Which, by the way, at one point filled with water last night, making me less than confident of my odds of not drowning in my sleep.
Apparently the whole concept of a CPAP blowing air down your throat all night long is like thirty years old and is still the standard treatment, which makes me suspicious, because come on, can we not find a better way to do this than shoving a nozzle in your nose? Fifty to sixty percent of all CPAP candidates don't use their machine, apparently, which to me is a pretty large margin of uselessness.
People keep saying I'm going to feel happier and less tired so why am I so FULL OF RAGE brought on by debilitating exhaustion and the prospect of having to wash multiple parts of an intricate, bulky machine every day?
So, fuck the CPAP, they gave me one and I left it at work. I'll try it again on Friday night when I know that if I wake up sore and miserable again I can just take the invasive, horrible mask off and go back to sleep.
RAGE.
It's not my first sleep study thing; it's actually my third, and I've always tolerated the electrodes and such pretty well before. Last night was the first one wearing a CPAP mask, which has left me exhausted and cranky.
I'm sure I did sleep, and I got probably at least six hours, which usually leaves me functional. I can only guess that having a GIANT HOSE in the bed with me, plus having to clench my jaw all night to prevent opening my mouth (every time I did, I promptly choked, but then I also choked when I didn't) plus having something blowing into my face for eight hours didn't really get me any quality sleep. I woke up this morning feeling exhausted, spent the whole day feeling exhausted, and finally feel human again after three hours of sleep without the stupid mask. Which, by the way, at one point filled with water last night, making me less than confident of my odds of not drowning in my sleep.
Apparently the whole concept of a CPAP blowing air down your throat all night long is like thirty years old and is still the standard treatment, which makes me suspicious, because come on, can we not find a better way to do this than shoving a nozzle in your nose? Fifty to sixty percent of all CPAP candidates don't use their machine, apparently, which to me is a pretty large margin of uselessness.
People keep saying I'm going to feel happier and less tired so why am I so FULL OF RAGE brought on by debilitating exhaustion and the prospect of having to wash multiple parts of an intricate, bulky machine every day?
So, fuck the CPAP, they gave me one and I left it at work. I'll try it again on Friday night when I know that if I wake up sore and miserable again I can just take the invasive, horrible mask off and go back to sleep.
RAGE.
