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Except for the really harsh hand-coding, I have finished uploading through August of 2007. The vast majority of the uploading from now on will be automated from the GJ/IJ mirrors.

Jesus christ, I need a drink.

As it turns out, uploading the more recent history is way more traumatic than the old stuff, even being miserable in Texas in 2006, because my memories of it are so much clearer and you guys? How did I not realise how incredibly miserable I was at the box office last year? I mean I know I didn't have a gold standard to compare it to, but seriously. Many terrible things have happened in 2008 but at least I don't work for a fucking nutbar anymore. As much as I liked my coworkers...fucking nutbar.

Dear BossBoss: I love my job and I am grateful you think I am competent and I will burn you a Torchwood DVD set and I want you never to fire me. Yrs, Sam.

Comments

[luxanebulis.livejournal.com]

Drinking on Halloween is a wonderful tradition! One that I've taken part in already...

I was miserable for the beginning of my junior year of college, and it took moving to Hawaii for me to realize that always being sad is a crappy way to live. So yea for being happy again!

[froda-baggins.livejournal.com]

I know how that feels. I recently escaped retail hell into a nice office job that I quite like. I'm grateful every day.

[iamshadow.livejournal.com]

*pours you something potent and alcoholic*

Do you like Caipiroskas? Vodka and lime wedges and sugar syrup over ice. Very nice and yummy and guaranteed to get you pleasantly smashed.

[illemaintenant.livejournal.com]

That does sound like a devilishly tasty drink! Damn. I did not need further encouragement to drink tonight... ;P It's gonna be a horrendous Sunday, obviously...

[copperbadge.livejournal.com]

I've never had it, but I like it already. *eyes remaining vodka in freezer*

[iamshadow.livejournal.com]

There are a few variations, but here's a simple recipe (http://everything2.com/title/Caipiroska). When I've made them at home, I've just used sugar syrup alone, not syrup and sugar. If you like sour things, you'll like it. It's refreshing and tangy, and very very nice.

[fiveforsilver]

How did I not realise how incredibly miserable I was

You know, it's weird, but sometimes you just don't. I was absolutely miserable at college and I never realized it - I honestly thought I was pretty happy there, until a friend pointed out how bitter and unhappy I was most of the time (and I didn't even believe her at first, it took a while for me to accept that she was right).

I know that feeling of amazement, too, of being so much happier now and looking back and thinking, how could I not see it...

[metallumai.livejournal.com]

I think that quite often it's MUCH BETTER that you don't know at the time. You focus on getting through, and don't take the time to contemplate the horribleness or the misery or whatever, and you DON'T TURN INTO A MASS MURDERER, which is good.

Sometimes it's not quite as good though: that's how I have always gotten when I'm coming down with pneumonia. You know: "I'm ok, just reallyreally tired; I'll get up and walk across the floor when I get up the energy...."

[copperbadge.livejournal.com]

I'm all in favour of not turning into a mass murderer :D

I just re-read those old entries and think to myself, how did I even cope? I didn't think I was that thick-skinned....

[cat63.livejournal.com]

How did I not realise how incredibly miserable I was at the box office last year?

Possibly a sort of mental defence mechanism? I'm no psychologist, so I may be talking total bollocks (wouldn't be the first time, for sure) but maybe not allowing yourself to realise how awful it was let you carry on until you had a clear escape route?

[illemaintenant.livejournal.com]

I'm with you on that, totally makes sense! From what I've read about how our brains and bodies react to stress (enough to pass an IB exam, so I know some things about it), that's the normal reaction when your body tries to cope with a long-term stressor. The body and mind kind of shuts down slightly, so you can focus on...survival, and such useful things. You know. ;P

It always fascinates me that we are designed to pull through almost anything!

[shazp.livejournal.com]

Nothing to do with your post really, but check this out (it will amuse):

http://news.sky.com/skynews/Home/Strange-News/Welsh-Road-Sign-Gaffe-Swansea-Council-Puts-Up-Sign-Reading-I-Am-Out-Of-The-Office/Article/200810415139328?lpos=Strange_News_Third_Home_Page_Article_Teaser_Region__0&lid=ARTICLE_15139328_Welsh_Road_Sign_Gaffe%3A_Swansea_Council_Puts_Up_Sign_Reading_I_Am_Out_Of_The_Office

Horribly long link though.

[copperbadge.livejournal.com]

BWAHAHAHAAH. Oh my god, that's genius.

[shazp.livejournal.com]

Yeah, thing is, why oh why didn't anyone notice??!!

Classic of everyone thinking that everyone else has checked I suppose. But there are Welsh speakers in Swansea. Just not in that office obviously :-)

[forest-rose.livejournal.com]

*cuddles you tight, pours you strong drink* I'm glad you're happier now, love xxx

[la-rainette.livejournal.com]

Well, I agree with Judy: very often, people don't realise how miserable they are at the time because if they did, they may not be able to handle it. And they need to go on, get up and do their stuff every morning so they really can't afford to focus on the Miserable.

Also, 1) we're all way stronger than we think we are, and I truly believe that. We only realise it when we look back on times where we were deeply, deeply miserable, and then we go, wow, I actually survived that? I ... am not sure if this should makes us feel better or very, very afraid *g* And 2) don't forget that you often use your journal to VENT. So many, many of your darkest moments are here. Reliving them has got to be hard, but also highlights how well you did through them, and how much better off you are today.

You did extremely well, considering. *hugs*